One time at Theater camp...

Having people know who you are is really weird. I got hugged by so many people I don't know durring On Fish that... I don't even know. I don't really know how to deal with it. I'm feeling really weird right now. Like I'm not even here. I haven't been communicating with people and all I want to do is take walks at midnight. I really wish I had gone with Marina to Seattle today. I should have. I also wish I had a pretty name. Don't tell me mine is pretty, because I hate it. It sounds like a stupid sound effect. And why does everyone want me to be in the musical? It's making me feel really confused, I don't know who I am anymore. I just want to start over and be loved again. I miss having adventures and inside jokes.

So last night I stumbled upon a bootleg of the Georgia Nicholson movie. It was supposed to be the greatest movie of my life, but it sucked. It sucked hard. :(. I wasn't expecting much truthfully, I just wanted some Svenly-ness and to see Georgia and Dave the Laugh be together, but no. They couldn't give me any of that, because they hate me. It was generally good casting, Tom and Robbie should have been switched, Georgia was fantastic, and Rosie was... well I am Rosie, so I would have trouble accepting anyone else; but Jas' casting was horrid. In the book she's a know it all and generally smartest of the group, but in the movie she was a stupid airhead. At least they could have let her keep her fringe, but NOOOoo. >:(. If Sven had been in it I would have been able to forgive the bad changes, it's a movie, they cannot capture eight books in one movie, but only giving Sven two seconds on film is just against all laws of the world. Those two seconds were the best part of the movie. No competition there. And the guy playing Sven was so much better looking then any of the other guys. Grr. Someone go find me Matt Brinkler so I can sex him.

This is a video some of my friends from middle school made. One of them is my best friends boyfriend. I found it amusing, but I know them, so everyone else will just be all WTF? But anyways...

So I feel really bad. My computer isn't letting me comment on journals. Why? I have no idea. It will let me type up stuff, but then it wont let me post it. So, until the problem is fixed, know that I'm reading your entries and want to comment, but am not able to at the moment. I bet you as soon as I post this it'll start working again.

So, I got back from the Ashland shakespeare fest today. I saw four of the shows (all Shakespeare, because I'm a nerd) and since I'm really tired I'm just going to jump right in to my reviews.

First I saw Coriolanus. It was really intense, and I totally didn't expect it to be any good since it's considered a lesser play de Shakespeare. It was set it in modern times with Coriolanus as an Iraq war vet type guy. The war scenes were so damn amazing. The blood was way realistic, much more so then in Othello, it almost made me throw up. The acting was very good, except for the woman playing his wife. She was not a Shakeperian actor, and was not comfortable speaking her lines. And the costumes! Coriolanus's mother had this jacket that I can't even describe, but it was beautiful. And then there was the lower class who were supposed to be electing Coriolanus to a position, anyway, they all had these jackets, sweatshirts, ect. with black and white faces all over them. I wanted one of them so bad! My favorite part was the audience lady on the other side of the audience who refused to look at the actors, and whenever anyone spoke she would plug her ears and close her eyes. Her husband fell asleep. Why the hell were they there? It was amusing anyway.

The second show was The Comedy of Errors. It was cute, set in the west and was a musical, but not everything worked. When the songs were upbeat and funny it was perfect and captured the madcap hilarity of the show well, but most of the songs were sad slow songs about being lonely and having no one to love. It slowed down the show so much that it made me cringe. Overall it was fun, but I would rather see the last version they did set in Las Vegas, that was the perfect show and why it's one of my top three favorite Shakespeare plays.

The next day we saw a midsummer nights dream. Lets just say, I saw it at the globe, and as soon as that show ended I knew it was going to be the best version I ever saw, and ever will see. However, this is one of the best I've seen. In this version it was set in the 80s, I think, and used colors very well to convey character and character development (as the lovers go through their time in the woods their clothes gradually change from white to a florecent color. AMAZING.) The lovers were probably the best I've seen, since they're usually the weakest part of the show, and these guys were quite funny and Tasso Feldman was beautiful and is going to have my babies. The faries were all, well faries, if you know what I mean. Unfortunatly the rude mechanicals were not very funny, and the Bottom, well, not even Kevin Kline can be as amazing as the guy at the globe.

Last was Othello. It was nice. Good acting, creepy, and Iago was very sexy. Yummy. Same guy who played Caliban last year. It was way better then the version I saw in the parks a few years ago.

Anyways. Now I want go sleep. i cannot speak english anymore and I don't give a damn about my spelling mistakes. :)

Me: If we had gone to see the dark knight we wouldn't have gotten out until midnight.
My mom: movies should have intermissions, I remember seeing movies with intermissions.
Me: Movies don't have intermissions anymore.
My Mom: They should.
My sister: They'd get more money if they gave people time to get more food.
Me: Yeah, and they would go to more movies so they could pee.

Awkward silence.

My Mom: I'd pay eight dollars to pee.



My family is dysfunctional. And I don't know how to eat watermelon.

So, after getting back from London my summer has quickly gone downhill.

I've started working again. My job makes me want to kill myself. I don't understand most of my work, nor do I care enough about the job to want to learn. So far in my job I've been harassed by a creepy guy in an abandoned parking lot, attacked by a dead bird and a field full of bugs that landed on me and wouldn't get off, been stared at by a room full of hospital workers, been mistaken for my father's wife, and almost killed myself on my swivel chair countless times. It wasn't so bad when I got paid better then my friends, but now I don't, and all my friends have more interesting jobs then me anyway. Sucks. Sucks hard.

Then there's outside of work. At first it wasn't so bad, I've been reading some really good books, watching some great movies, and generally having a nice relaxing summer. Until I got back my AP grades. Pretty much, I failed AP Art. At first I got really upset and cried the whole day and decided never to do art again. Then I got over it and realized that people have told me I suck at lots of things and that hasn't stopped me from trying yet. I still feel like shit though.

The only good parts of summer so far have been the new Georgia Nicholson book (full of lots of svenly goodness) and the new season of Monk which makes me sing with joy.

Thursday was the first time in a very long time that I didn't cry myself to sleep. That's such a relief you don't even know. I've been doing that since 6th grade. Maybe things are starting to look up for me. Last night I had a dream that Shannon was interviewing me and two other girls to see who got to design the play poster. It was really weird, I won, but then Shannon took me to meet her family who lived in the woods and their cabin had no electricity and all of a sudden I fell into a christmas tree and couldn't get out.

I don't want to know what that dream means. Oh, I forgot, "shannon" also made me join a band so I could help her put on Seussical for her family, but the only actor we could get was Signe, so we had to use a bunch of weird looking men to fill in the other roles.

I am special. No wonder Shannon doesn't like me.

I hate wicked and really don't want to waste my time in London seeing it.

Wow, I don't like missing school... I'm kind of a nerd that way. Anyway, New York was way more fun then I thought it was going to be. Let's list the awesomeness by day, because that is just how awesome it was.

Friday:
~ Pretty much the old guy at the Walt Whitman museum is my family's new BFF, he gave us the extended tour and thought I was a boy. It was epic.
~ My Uncle Robby has a tattoo of his dog on his chest. WTF?
~ I got to watch weird tv. I don't even know what the hell I was watching, and I'm not sure if I want to remember...

Saturday:
~The Bar Mitzva wasn't as good as my other cousin's, the only memorable thing was the two times 13 year olds grabbed by boob.
~My uncle tried to give me a huge box of yamikkas to take back home to give to my friends, my cousin suggested selling them.
~ Laughed at New York and all its Atom Bomb shelters.

Sunday:
~ Went into NY City and litterally ran through times square.
~ Had the best cheesecake I've ever had in my life.
~ Saw Young Frankenstine, but I wanted to see Gypsy or Crybaby. It was still fun.
~ Went to MoMa and decided to be an uber nerd and take pictures with all the famous paintings.
~ Went out to dinner with my Uncle Howie and my cousins where I found out that me and my cousin Zach are exactly the same even though we aren't blood related.
~ Watched my cousins play the Legend of Zelda and laughed because Zach kept pulling out this stupid blue chicken instead of bombs whenever he was fighting things. I really don't understand video games.

Monday:
~ Pretty much the only good thing about Purchase was the hot guy who co-led the tour. The other guy was lame and kept talking about how he was from Rhode Island. But me and hot guy needed to have babies.
~ Sarah Lawrence was really sketch, but my kind of sketch. It was the best of the two I saw by far, but I don't know if it's right for me.
~ Was forced to watch Dancing with the Stars by my Mom and Grandma, so my dad got me ice cream with sprinkles, my favorite thing in the world.

Tuesday:
~Went to buy passover food at a grocery store and found a whole part of the store devoted to passover toys. I bought a Plague Interactive Activity Set. Jewish children are so lucky.
~ Went to Coney Island, which is disapointing after learning about what is was like.
~ Saw a baby walrus at the aquarium and watched the daddy walrus get fed which was the cutest thing of my life. I love walruses now. The best part was when he was swimming past the underwater viewing area and was clapping his flippers(?) and staring at this little five year old boy. OMG CUTENESS!
~ While walking on the board walk we saw an old man offering people his joint and swearing about the Japanese. There were also a bunch of asian people filming garbage.
~ Horton hears a Jew.

I really wish I was there.

How come every time I get my hair cut it looks like crap?

Best movie evar!

sadly this is the only good video youtube had



some quotes I lurve:

Seamus Muldoon: Mickey Maldoon, you listen to me: You stay away from that girl, or I'll disown you!
Mickey Muldoon: How can you disown me; you don't own anything.
Mary Muldoon: Don't speak to your father like that!
Mickey Muldoon: What, you do!
Jack Woods: That's expected - I'm his wife! And don't speak to *me* like that!
Seamus Muldoon: Yes, don't speak to her like that!
Mickey Muldoon: Well, who'm I expected to speak to like that, then?
Seamus Muldoon: Now you're speaking to me like that.
Mickey Muldoon: But she started speaking to *me* like that...

Jack Woods: [Seamus and Mickey appear in his buggy while he's racing] What're you doing here?
Seamus Muldoon: We thought you might like a hand.
Mickey Muldoon: Oh, don't worry, Mr. Woods, the old Leprechaun magic'll do the tirck.
Jack Woods: Great! Tell me what to do!
[beat]
Seamus Muldoon: Get closer to the others!


Sean Devine: Go for it, Mickey me boy. Little Maurice here is begging for it.
Count Grogan: DON'T call me Maurice!
Sean Devine: Oh, well then, I won't. Maurice.
Jericho O'Grady: [laughing] And niether will I - Maurice!
Barney O'Grady: Maurice, Maurice, Maurice!

Rules:
1. Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDB and find a quote from each movie. (or screw this and post the quotes you want!!!)
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions. Totally cheating, you dirty cheater

1. "So that would make Bethany... part black?"-DOGMA

2. "I can't believe your crew fell for that. And where in God's name did you get that manniquin?"

3. "Is it true that there's a point on a man's head where if you shoot it, it will blow up?"-HOT FUZZ

4. "And in the end, should someone die?" -Moulin Rouge

5. "The steel beast is dead peasants! I've set you all free!" -ENCHANTED

6. "Don't think it's yours just because you marked it with your urine!"-JUNO

7. "I know. She's heading an expedition to China shortly. I'm to go as her servant. But only on the understanding that I am to be very badly treated"-SENSE AND SENSIBILITY

8. "Now I have a machine gun. Ho ho ho."

9. "I'll cut your heart out with a spoon."

10. "I hate Illinois Nazis." -BLUES BROTHERS

I am the worst understudy ever. I should have been doing something today after Alexis left, but I just didn't want to sing in front of people. Nobody needs that. Other then that today was okay. The Grinch is so much fun, I don't think he's as funny as he once was, but that's what happens when you do something fifty times. Anyway, there was also heath where someone said my skeleton was ugly and I almost bitched her out. I should have, but I just ignored her, because I figured she's jealouse. She's the type of person who makes fun of theater people because she wishes she was in the plays, I really don't like her and I don't need that type of person always hanging around me telling me how stupid I am. If I had it my way I wouldn't ever be near her, but she's friends with all my other friends and I'd rather just ignore her then ditch my friends, which I did this morning when she was sitting in my spot (then during lunch Ms Gorman told me she missed me this morning because my "replacement" sucked at working the elevator.) I am getting a little more assertive though, I finally had the nerve to put Anna G. in her place. I felt really bad and I know she was pissed off at me after but I was like, bitch, no, you're a Sophomore and you need to shut the fuck up. I didn't say that, but almost.
God I wish I could sing. Then I could at least have solace in the fact that I would be better at something then people I hate. I'm such a bad person. I just have been feeling like crap ever since that stupid game in Social Justice. Usually I don't care what I look like, but for the first time in two years I feel so fat and ugly. I kept the stupid grading sheet and I'm thinking about showing it to my parents, I know it was supposed to be a learning thing, but those questions were on really sensitive subjects, we would have learned the same thing if he told people to subtract 20 points if they were wearing red. I hate that class.

Today wasn't a good day for me.

My father told me I'm going to fail APUSH. yey.

I am the only person in the world who doesn't like American Idol, I swear. Oh well, I'm used to being the odd man out. I've basically spent the last two days doodling on my wacom tablet. I hope to one day be good at something, so I can, you know... get a job. I've wanted to work for Disney all my life, but it's the only thing my parents refuse to support me in. Maybe they're right. Doesn't matter anyway, I'm already known as the Hobo in AP Art, might as well do what I'm good at. In my seventeen days of being seventeen I have realized one thing. I don't care about getting a boyfriend anymore, I want a best friend. I don't mean a bunch of friends who i care about, I mean someone I do EVERYTHING with. I just look at Kathleen and Rachel and feel depressed. I've never had a best friend. I've thought people were my best friends, but as soon as they moved or met someone new they would dump me. I've also never had a friend more then four years. Except one, and she is the only person I do everything with, but she's got another best friend (except I think their relationship might be a little closer then that) and most of the time now she just pays attention to her. It really hurts when someone you thought you had a really strong relationship with doesn't even put you in her top five friends.

I saw Sweeney Todd again yesterday with my friend who know everything about Stephen Sondheim. Not even joking, she's read every book about him and owns every recording of his, including stuff from when he was a teenager. She's crazy and I love her. Any way. Anthony looks exactly like Kira Knightly when he's singing after he gets beat up, I started laughing so hard and the old people were looking at me funny. Everyone was old except this one lady who kept staring at me before the movie started. She laughed at everything. When some one picked something up or opened the door she just started laughing and falling over. I think she was high because her boyfriend was acting weird too and kept getting popcorn.

Is Johanna in the meat market?
Is Johanna in the graveyard? perhaps she is this statue? no...
Is Johanna in the opium den?
Oh there she is, in the insane asylum. Silly girl.

The whole day I pretended to be anthony and my friend tried to hit me with a tea pot. It was quite epic. Especially before the movie when I was demonstrating Pirelli's costume and the old lady behind me was looking at me funny.